Life update and learnings

•  Patience is a virtue that I need to work on. This applies at home and at the school. Recent life changes and events have made me realize that I need to stretch my patience longer in the months ahead. Patience was once a trait I pride myself on. But as I grew older, I became more impatient, especially after giving birth. I find practicing patience at home more challenging than at school. Because at home, I am juggling between household chores and managing my family's "wants." - and these overwhelm me. While at school, I share my patience with other school staff interacting with the children. This in turn lightens the demand to be patient since it becomes a shared virtue among the staff.

• Planning ahead is a MUST. BUT SOME PEOPLE DO NOT BELIEVE THIS. Before having a family, I "go with the flow." Now that I have a family, I have made it a point to have a plan, a backup plan, and, if possible, a backup to the backup plan. And I make sure that nobody gets burdened by the plans. This has made my previous plans less anxious and roadblocks more manageable. BUT some people do not make plans ahead of time, or they only plan for themselves and do not think about the group. Constantly being on my toes gives me anxiety, and most of the time, I reciprocate with anger or indifference towards the person. As of writing, I have no idea how to manage this. What I can do right now is acknowledge that there are people around me who are like this right now.

• There are times when a person needs to be sneaky to achieve peace. I recently realized this, and I haven't entirely accepted it. I have also despised going behind a person's back or looking at their personal "space." But recent life developments have forced my hand and I hate doing it. If I don't do it, the consequences are more grievous. I sound like I am justifying my wrong actions, but the people who are close to me know the predicament I am in right now. I need to be a game planner behind the scenes to minimize possible complications because of certain people's... arrogance. I never said I was a "good" person, but being in this situation makes me question my morals, and I don't like it. Unfortunately, I have to live with it.

• Silence does not mean submission, sometimes it's the only means to survive - or make the "person" think that they are in control. I am contemplating if I should expound on this as it is quite complicated and goes against years of cultural "values." What I can say for now is, that values may differ in every generation, in every circumstance, and in every family. I am in no position to judge anybody, and I hope they do not judge me too.

These are some of the learning in the first two months of the year. I said it before, and I would like to say it again, I strive to live, learn, and not "perfect" but be a better person for those around me. I do not expect it to be a walk in the park, and I know that these may take years or even forever, but I hope I improve with every step and learning that I have.

A New Year and On to Possible Opportunities - and Consistency

A pleasant greeting to everyone.

I started this blog in November 2009, and it has been 14 years since then. I do not regularly update, and I go on unannounced hiatus and return. But this year, I hope to revive my blog once again. Like the famous saying, "Try and try until you succeed."

Major update: I have migrated to New Zealand. The move was last August 2023 - it was in the middle of the winter season when we arrived. Four months have passed since we arrived, but adjustment is ongoing. I am grateful to everyone who has been helping me with the change - my friend Edelyn, Ley, and the principal and staff of my daughter's school.

The move from one country to another is a major change for me and my daughter, but this morning I received news about a major change once more. My husband's boss accepted a managerial position on a farm at a different region in New Zealand. Since they are a (dairy) team, we will be moving with him. The move is in June but as early as now, we are planning for it. Honestly, the move makes me nervous because my daughter and I have warmed up to the school community. This is one of the down sides of having a family while working at the dairy farming sector. Moving from one farm to another is inevitable.

Change is (definitely) the only thing constant in this world. The irony of the saying can be a hard pill to swallow.

There are opportunities I am looking forward to in the next two months. I hope I can give a decent update in the future.

I also have goals that I hope to accomplish within the first half of the year and one of those is getting a Learner's Driving License. Knowing how to drive is essential here in New Zealand. It opens up more opportunities in general and it is the primary mode of transportation here.

There are numerous events to look forward to this year and I hope I can be consistent in documenting it here.

For now, I wish everyone a happy a prosperous new year ahead of us all.

Till my next update. Ciao.

What's up Bea? It's been months, and I only update now, and the year is about to end

Hello everyone, how have you all been? In my last post, I mentioned that my daughter started schooling and there would be changes in my work environment. Then I never posted an update, apologies for that.

Eventful. That is how I would describe the previous months since my last update. I mean this most positively and negatively.

Quick summary of the past months:

• There is visible progress in my daughter's education, but there are still tantrums and frustrating days.
• My daughter has a better understanding of my work and my schedule. (This made me teary-eyed; I feel she is growing up fast.)
• I can bring my daughter to work once in a while.
• There are additions to my tasks in terms of the workload.
• Four helpers were employed and eventually were let go due to different reasons by my employer. My temperament was truly tested by the last helper that left.
• I chopped my long hair, and I plan to donate it. (More about this in the future.)
• Volunteer time was reduced, but I still make time when needed.

How am I so far?

I am content and satisfied with where I am right now. This is a far cry from the anxiety and uncertainty I was feeling in the previous two years. I am still learning and figuring out the intricacies of working as a caregiver. But, I have confidence and certainty in what I am doing.

In April 2020, I decided to return to blogging and attempt to save my sanity. It took two years, but I am proud to say I have made progress. Of course, there are still struggles along the way, but I feel more capable of handling them.

What does the future hold?

Uncertainty. Change is definitely around the corner, and I pray I am prepared to handle it.

In about twenty-four days, 2022 will end, but my gut feeling tells me more surprises are yet to come in the next 24 days.

What were my goals at the start of this year?

At the start of this year, I wrote only three goals. As the year progressed, I added more goals. The three goals I wrote are:

• be employed
• paying off my credit card debt (remnants of the height of the pandemic)
• lose weight

And here is the update

• be employed 
• I started work on the 21 of June. 

• paying off my credit card debt (remnants of the height of the pandemic)
• I am not yet halfway through paying my credit card, but it has more "buying power" now.

• lose weight
• I actually gained more weight this year because of stress. 😂😂😂 this one is a struggle for me as I LOVE FOOD. We will see where this will take me next year. 😏😏😏

Not bad, right? Other goals I accomplished this year that I am proud of:

• There is now progress in my daughter's schooling.
• I became a Certified First Aider under the guidance of the Philippine Red Cross Quezon City Chapter.

These two stood out the most because these two added goals gave me peace of mind and a sense of accomplishment. I cannot describe how the two added goals were great pivot points in my life.

Overall, 2022 was a great year of progress. It is not my golden year, but it was definitely one for the books.

 Hope everyone has a blessed, content, and fulfilling holiday season.

Happy holidays everyone! 🎊🎄🌠🎆

Half the year has passed... an update

Half of the year has passed and it has been an eventful one. At the start of this year, I was wondering what this year will bring me. Now, I would like to give a short summary.

January - I got my certificate for Caregiving Course.

February - Idle month.

March - Philippine Red Cross First Aid and Basic Life Support Training. It was also my first time donating blood.

April - I had an appendectomy a week before my birthday.

May - The busy month!!! I started volunteering under Philippine Red Cross. One of my first duty was during the National Elections. I volunteered for Sunday Mass duty and Free Medical Check-up duty for the succeeding weeks.

June - The most eventful month!!!

        - I was able to find work as a Caregiver. Though I got the connection through our local Red Cross Chapter, the reason I got work was that I am a Maryknoller and I have trained as a Caregiver.

        - My daughter also started her "schooling" this month. This has been a great concern for me since 2020. But now that she has started, I am more relieved and confident about my daughter's future.

        - My daughter and my niece celebrated their birthday this month. As expected, preparations had to be done. During my daughter's birthday, we invited the sons of a family friend. This is the first time that we had guests for my daughter's birthday since she celebrated her birthday here in the metro. The girls call them brothers.

        - It was also my first time having a Sunday Mass duty at St. Joseph Parish Church for Philippine Red Cross, and during my duty, it was my first time responding to a minor incident on my own.

July - At the moment, this month has an uneasy feeling. There are impending changes at work that are creating a rift between me and some people I am working with. The changes at the end of the month will most likely affect my work schedule, my volunteer schedule, and of course my management of my daughter's schedule and schooling.

In the past, this feeling of uncertainty would bring me anxiety, but this time around, I feel calmer and more accepting of possible changes in the future. My assumption is that I have gained back some of my self-confidence in the past few months.

Note to self: "You are moving forward and getting somewhere Bea. One step at a time. I have all these dreams I would like to fulfill, one day I will MAKE IT REAL*"

*Make It Real by Generations from Exile Tribe

"I finally have a purpose." update

I realized it has been a month since I updated. What has happened to me so far after saying "I have found a purpose?" To tell you all the truth, not much. Everything I was planning that is related to my Caregiving plans is all at the initial stages and not much movement.

Hopefully, I can give a better update about it in the future. 💪

Update

 Hello everyone!

Please forgive me, there have been no entries in my blog. The previous months have been emotionally and physically draining for me. I cannot put into words what I have been going through and this may also be one of the reasons why I have no posts. Every small change and detail has been overwhelming for me that I have difficulty in handling different situations.

Last year I said I started blogging again was for my emotional health. In the previous months, other than emotional health, I now have to deal with my physical health. In my early twenties, I was conscious of changes in my body which helped me detect early signs of illness. After I gave birth five years ago, everything changed. I took my health for granted. Thinking about it now, it may have been because I kept on comparing myself with other mothers. I gave in to pressure without realizing it.

"Yung iba nga..."

"Parte talaga yan ng pagiging nanay, tiisin mo...'

"Dapat ganito... dapat ganyan..."

My body was giving me signs that I was not fine at all, but I brushed it off. Until recently, I felt pain, discomfort, and "lumps" in certain areas of my body. What I am afraid of is, I may have turned a blind eye on my own health for too long that it is already at its limit.

Not sure if I will be updating progress about it here in my blog or will merely pass by it once in a while. We will see in the future.

At the moment, I am just taking things one day at a time.

Everyone, take care.

Sprouts no More

 An update from my April 2021 post.

My squash plants are no longer sprouts!

Grow!!!

Need fertilizer. Tune in for more in the future.

Small achievements. 😉

Update (May 2021)

There is not much to update about May. My focus last month was that one investment that went haywire. Surprisingly, it ended in the most unexpected way possible.

I lost track of my routine for the past two months. May flew by so fast, and I had so many negative thoughts, and I felt like there was so much burden on my shoulder.

Hopefully, this month will be better.

A year since I revived my blog, how am I?

Last year, I decided to revive my blog on my 30th birthday. A year has passed, and I thought of giving a rundown of what has happened this past year.

I started blogging again for personal and "selfish" reasons - for my mental health. I reread my post from last year and realized how crass the post sounded. I didn't mean to sound rude. During that time, I felt that working on my mental health was a selfish thing to do as a mother, and I felt guilty. Thankfully, I have friends who supported me and constantly reminded me that it's ok to find time and splurge on myself once in a while.

Even before the pandemic started, I have been struggling emotionally and mentally. I decided to do something about it and go back to the basics. One of those was blogging.

For the first few months, my posts were light-hearted. As the year progressed, I shared my opinions, stand in political and national issues, past experiences, raw emotions, anger, and frustrations. The posts right now range from random things that inspire me or my opinions/ideas that I would like to share.

Trying new things, rediscovering past hobbies, and a change I made

Growing up, I have always been afraid to try something new, afraid to fail and disappoint. The only time that I felt confident in trying something out of the ordinary was when I was in college. But after that, I would not say that I was a risk-taker. This past year, I tried learning new skills like baking, trying new cooking recipes, starting a business, planting an urban garden, fixing a shower, and investing in stocks. I also revisited past hobbies like drawing, dancing, photography, and playing the piano. Most were trial and error, but there were moments of success. Fear and laziness still delayed me from starting the projects. But when I eventually got to it, whether it was a success or a failure, I felt accomplished. This time around, I didn't put any pressure on myself. Whatever the results may be, at least I tried. It is only recently that I accepted that it does not matter if I am good at my hobbies. What is important is I can do it, and I enjoyed doing it.

One thing I changed that impacted my mental health was temporarily deactivating my Facebook for a month. And when I reactivated it, I limited my use of the platform to sell things. I rarely scroll through my feeds or react to posts. It was a life-changer for me.

My future plans

Around January last year, I decided I will be taking a course in Caregiving. The classes got delayed due to the pandemic, but it eventually pushed through last November. Saying I get anxious about becoming a caregiver, especially abroad, is an understatement. I am currently in the middle of the course, and I am still questioning my ability to deliver. I am scared of uncertainty. But at the end of the day, I don't want the feeling of regret for not taking the opportunity. Currently, this is the route I am choosing for my future. I am hoping to find purpose upon taking up this new chapter in my life.

I mentioned trying new things, harnessing new skills, and rediscovering past interests. But other than that, we had a struggle last year that we will never forget. It was when three members of our family tested positive for COVID 19. The level of anxiety, anger, and uncertainty was off the roof. Thankfully, nobody else got infected, and everyone eventually tested negative after two weeks of quarantine. It was a trying year for my family and me, but we continue to move forward.

How am I a year after I started this self-project of mine?

As compared to last year, I have a better understanding of my ability and skills. I have more confidence in trying new things, accepting failure, and clear goals on what I want to do or happen in my life. Little by little, I can say that I am comfortable with who I am.

What do I have to work on and improve?

I am aware that there is still a lot that I need to develop within myself, like consistency, patience, and self-control. These are some of the attributes I still have to improve. There are times I would still second-guess myself, and I still feel anxiety when things suddenly go awry.

The battle with my personal "monsters" has just begun.

Hopefully, my 31st year has better outcomes for me in the future.

Thank you for everyone's support, especially from my sister and my friends.

"If you can learn to love yourself and all the flaws, you can love other people so much better. And that makes you so happy." -Kristin Chenoweth

April 2021 Update

The month of April ended without me posting a single entry. I have been preoccupied with financial matters recently. I made investments. Currently, there are no significant returns yet. Hopefully, in the distant future, it will bear great benefits. Unfortunately, we had one investment that failed, and that is our future house. I am not sure if I mentioned our house investment in my previous post. But it was a big disappointment. Hoping to get our refund as we felt that the company, the agent to be more specific, blind-sided us. Moving forward, I won't delve into that anymore.

As for my other investments, I won't be reaping any benefits from them for now. Hopefully, in the future, it will give me more financial stability and security in my health.

It was my birthday month, but I didn't feel ecstatic about it. I guess I was thinking about other things other than turning 31. I tried growing squash around the third week of April. I was amused when leaves started sprouting. So far, there are eight sprouts. Let's see where that will go in a few weeks.

As for my social media presence, I mostly use it for commerce purposes. My main Facebook profile I rarely open, while the commerce account is online so that I can post things I sell and so that I can receive messages for inquiries. I haven't been posting on my Instagram and Twitter either.

Honestly, I don't know how the month went by so fast.

In general, that's all I can say for my April.

More detailed updates will be in my next entry.

Update (March 2021)

For March, I decided to start doing stretches in the morning. I am hoping to give a little structure to my life by starting with a routine. Everything seems to be a "go-with-the-flow" since the onset of the pandemic. Though it is a small change, I would like to think that it may be beneficial for me in the long run. There is still a long way to go before I achieve what I want to happen in my life, and I know that I have to work my ass to achieve it. My problem right now is motivating and pushing myself to move or even to start something.

This month, it was my first time trying to play Minecraft. I am afraid to try anything new, especially when it involves risks. It takes time for me to build up the courage to do new activities. This time there was not much risk, and initially, the game was supposed to be for my daughter. But early on, I realized that it is easily addicting, so I set limitations early on.

I was finally able to consolidate all my bank accounts. It is a check on my "to-do list" because I have been trying to do this since last year. It got so delayed that it prevented me from getting a loan early this year.

Other than my small accomplishment this month, I also have failures.

I tried those money-generating apps online. Unfortunately, it did not work for me. Consistency was difficult for me as I had other responsibilities to attend.

Consistency is one of the things I need to work on right now. I have been consistent with is three weeks of workout in the morning, a specific day for laundry, and a glass of water as soon as I wake up. Small things, but these are small milestones and progress for me as I have no structure in my everyday routine before. It's a start but still far from the goal.

I have also been thinking of other plans, but so far, they are just ideas and nowhere near fruition. One of those plans is to get better identification cards with my married name on them. It needs time and work, but hoping to do this in time for my next update.

Hoping to have a better update next month as it will be one year since I restarted blogging for the sake of my sanity.

Till next time. Chiao.

Update (February 2021)

It was a short month. It felt that the month went by too fast.

It was my niece's birthday, and I prepared a little backdrop for her. It was just a small celebration, but the kids enjoyed it, especially my niece. It was a bit quirky as she likes Pocoyo, and we call her a dinosaur (she can be so destructive around the house.) So the backdrop was a combination of the two.

I feel a sense of purpose doing things like these for the kids. It was also the first time for me to make brownies - because the kids wanted some. I am starting to think maybe I might have a future in doing pies and brownies - or it was just me. Hopefully, I get to have more opportunities to bake in the future. I am starting to like it.

I seem to have a knack for fixing some things too. But I don't see myself delving much into it. Maybe it's more of the simple knowledge of "fixing it if I can" moment. Some may even say the kuripot side of me.

I guess that is all for now. Probably I will have a better 

Update (January 2021)

It's the new year, and I was hoping to progress more with my plans. But the way things are going, there seem to be other plans for me in the future. There are many self-doubts, but I try to stand for what I have decided. Moving forward and continuing what has started is all I can do for now. It is nerve-wracking, but I hope and pray that I made the right decision. It is not just for me but for my family.

The level of stress and anxiety was not as high as in previous months. Productivity is low for this month. I have been waking up late for this month. I am not sure if it is because of the weather or I have no drive to do anything.

Either way, I have to increase production for the rest of the year. As for my anxiety and my temper, I need to have a better grasp of it.

I guess this is part of my goals this year. I won't expect sudden progress. But I hope at the end of the year changes can be felt and observed.

Let's all face 2021 with a little strength in our hearts and the courage to move forward.

Update (December 2020)

For the whole month of December, we were preparing for the Christmas Eve and New Year Eve celebrations. From homemade decors to simple store-bought trinkets, planning for the feast, and buying the gifts for the kids (and trying to hide the gifts from the kids until Christmas day).

December went by very fast.

I had a few success in things I did for the first time, and a few roadblocks, that in my opinion I handled fairly well, of course I can do better. But in general things are not as difficult as a few months back.

More details about our Christmas Eve and New Years Eve feast in upcoming posts.

Right now, I continue in this game call life, and I hope we could all support each other in our high and lows.

Till next time. Chiao.

Updates (November 2020)

The month of November was really about the storms that hit us and how we all struggled to just survive the whole ordeal. Personally, we were not directly affected. But the effect on us was felt differently. There was a shortage in some food supplies, and communication was limited.

People went out of their way to help those who were devastated by the storm. This could be the silver lining after the storm. I did my own part, but it was minimal in effect, though my intention to help was there.

The month flew by very fast. Not sure if it was all the gloominess after the storm or it was just that time of the year (shorter days and longer nights).

My up moments for November is mostly about my daughter. I found some ways on how she would be interested in her school exercises. This is also with the help and the patience of her school, which I am very thankful for. We are still far from the required learning for her, but at least we are getting somewhere, and I am just content with that. My daughter seems to be discovering her own interests, and I would like to give her a chance to explore that.

Music and fangirling also helped me through the month, music from Generations from Exile Tribe to be specific. They launched a new album this month, and I simply followed through with their scheduled activities - music videos, dance videos, lives, etc. Now that I think about it, this is the first time I actually followed through with a group's schedule. Maybe that's why it felt interesting to me. 😉😉😉

I've been taking pictures and posting them recently on my Instagram. I mentioned it before, I use my mobile phone in taking photos despite the lack of specs for a high-resolution photograph, guess that is the challenge of it! Please check my Instagram for the pictures.

Lastly, on the last weekend of November, I started my class on Caregiving Course. I will make an entry about this in the future, because well, it deserves its own post.

That is all for now. Toodles~

Updates (October 2020)

This post is delayed, but better late than never.

October went by pretty fast. I guess because I had several things I was looking forward to and was happy to witness.

In the first week of the month, I was generally happy as it was the birthday of Japanese artists that I admire. One of those artists is Suzuki Hiroki from D-boys, who celebrated his birthday last October 3. I have been following him since his Tenimyu days, and he has grown as an actor, and I look up to him.

Photo: https://twitter.com/zukky1003

Another thing I was looking forward to was the possibility of having a laptop. In the end, I did get it, and I will be making a post about it in the future. And we also have a functioning speaker that we got from another tenant who left. To sum it up, we were able to obtain gadgets for free or somewhat lower in price as compared to it's actual market price.

I continue posting photographs on my Instagram and my Twitter. Like what I said before, I am trying to hone my photography skills, but with a little twist. The camera I am using is my camera phone. I am using a Samsung Folder 2, and a second hand one at that. The camera is below par compared to the latest phones, but that's the beauty of it. I can only work with what I have. That is the real challenge.

I am still struggling with my routine (see my previous updates). But I am trying my best to follow it.

There are new songs and videos that I have added to my playlist. These are those that moved me or has struck some heartstrings. I might share them in the future.

The real highlight of this month is my sister Rei's birthday. Though she didn't prepare a feast, just planning it was hilarious, and it made me feel giddy.

A snippet of my birthday greeting to my sister on Facebook

In general, the month was relatively feel good as compared to the previous months.

I would say it was a good, happy month. 

Updates (September 2020)

I am currently torn with the idea of posting everything that is in my mind right now on this entry versus typing a separate entry for each thought and simply write short updates here. Personally, when I see a document that says “updates” I expect it to be short and concise.

This month has the least number of post for a reason.

First off, the struggle of the previous month which is my daughter’s online class hasn’t changed for the better. I am fortunate though that her teacher is understanding and she gave us some leeway when it came to deadlines with the activities.

Next, I realized how convenient and at the same time inconvenient online grocery shopping is. Convenient because they delivery it to you. Inconvenient because I was so stressed out with the app, poor internet connection, unavailability of products, additional fees,  and misunderstanding between the assigned shopper and me.

Why did we suddenly need to do online grocery shopping if all this time we have been going out to buy it once a week since the pandemic started?

Well, the last update will answer this.

We were quarantined for half the month of September because we had positive cases for COVID-19 in our household.

Details in the next posts.

So yeah, this month has the least number of posts because I can practically summarize it to: for the first half of the month, I was at wit’s end due someone’s immature and impulsive decisions and for the second half of the month, we were quarantined and most of the time I was just worried sick about our health and our daily supplies since we could not go out.

Sh***y month for this year.

End of update.

Updates

 August was not kind to me.

There were not much orders for the pizza business. So financially, no income 😔😔

This month, my daughter’s online classes started. Well, not exactly a good start as my daughter likes the idea of school but not the idea of doing school at home. I will make a post about it in a few days.
I felt my anxiety more this month, and I could not count how many times I have cried and I have spaced out.

In terms of progress in my journey to a better me, this month was a step back.
Activities I have been doing in the previous months to “self rediscovery” have been limited or have ceased for this month. I guess I was overwhelmed with the idea of homeschooling my child and I put all my focus there. It doesn’t help that some “concerns” that I thought would be halted or put aside for some time due to the pandemic, would actually be aggressively pushed forward, adding stress to my already anxious state, talking about adding insult to injury.

Well, something a little positive. I fixed an electric line connection on my own and fixed a water connection. I even joked to my sister that maybe I chose the wrong course in college, as I seem to be better in practical stuff. I am even considering taking technical courses just to see if I might be able to have more opportunities in the future.

Also, I bought a bike. Generally, I like it. It needs a lot of repairs but I think I can handle it, if only I have the right tools.

The thing that I have been delaying for months now, I was able to do it, but it gave me more anxiety than relief.

I foresee more struggles in the future, I just keep holding on.

Ps. I hope September would give me more enlightenment.

Pss. Drowning myself in music again, that is why I know I am not doing well.

Updates

Monthly update minna-san.

This month went by too fast for me. I guess one of the reasons was because I started a pizza business so that practically took most of my time. Will go into more detail on another post.

Though I have been feeling lazy recently though 😞 not sure if lazy or tired. Been delaying my usual tasks (on time washing of dishes, schedule for washing clothes, etc.) and have been waking up an hour or two late from my routine last month. Is it the rainy weather? I don’t know.

My only progress for this month is the pizza business. Struggling and small income but still, money is coming in.

I haven’t been able to do the things I was interested in that I posted two months ago because the pizza business practically took over me.

Maybe learning lesson here and possibly plan for this month is time management? Specially now that my daughter will start school mid-august.

Oh, get this, the task that I mentioned that I delayed last month? Still delayed! I fail! 😭😭😭

That’s all for now... I guess?

Hmmm... not much progress report here.

Well, I was more reactive about the situation of my country during this pandemic, and I shared a little more about myself this month.

This month was just “getting by month I guess”.

Till next month, hopefully I have better updates by then 😉

thoughts and questions (update 2)

apparently, there are so many questions in my head and i can't seem to properly sort them.

they are all jumbled in my head.

so i need someone who can keep up with me,

and at the same time,

will not judge me or make me feel belittled by my own thoughts.

you know who you are,

but i doubt you would be able to read this.

well, i know we'll have that moment one of these days?

chiao!

hope to see you around my friend. (^_^)
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 update 1:

i had this chance to talk to my friend.

thankfully he was still up to it despite being tired and all.

thanks for being there my friend. :)

hopefully we can continue our talk later tonight or on wednesday. :)

chiao
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update 2:

that was a good chat last night.

i personally got a ton of learning and i hope you got your fair share of learning. :)

thank you for the advice and i hope, like what we have talked about yesterday,

we can help each other with our weaknesses.

like what you said last night,

"that's why we are partners."

chiao!