Survival

Everything has its way of surviving.

Whether in the wild on or in the urban jungle.

Humans, animals, plants, every single creation

Even gadgets are built for survival nowadays.

But, every single thing in this world has its limit.

Even the will to survive may come to an end.

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Updates (October 2020)

This post is delayed, but better late than never.

October went by pretty fast. I guess because I had several things I was looking forward to and was happy to witness.

In the first week of the month, I was generally happy as it was the birthday of Japanese artists that I admire. One of those artists is Suzuki Hiroki from D-boys, who celebrated his birthday last October 3. I have been following him since his Tenimyu days, and he has grown as an actor, and I look up to him.

Photo: https://twitter.com/zukky1003

Another thing I was looking forward to was the possibility of having a laptop. In the end, I did get it, and I will be making a post about it in the future. And we also have a functioning speaker that we got from another tenant who left. To sum it up, we were able to obtain gadgets for free or somewhat lower in price as compared to it's actual market price.

I continue posting photographs on my Instagram and my Twitter. Like what I said before, I am trying to hone my photography skills, but with a little twist. The camera I am using is my camera phone. I am using a Samsung Folder 2, and a second hand one at that. The camera is below par compared to the latest phones, but that's the beauty of it. I can only work with what I have. That is the real challenge.

I am still struggling with my routine (see my previous updates). But I am trying my best to follow it.

There are new songs and videos that I have added to my playlist. These are those that moved me or has struck some heartstrings. I might share them in the future.

The real highlight of this month is my sister Rei's birthday. Though she didn't prepare a feast, just planning it was hilarious, and it made me feel giddy.

A snippet of my birthday greeting to my sister on Facebook

In general, the month was relatively feel good as compared to the previous months.

I would say it was a good, happy month. 

Mood in a photo

I have always been struggling with my moodiness since as long as I could remember. The worst instances are when I have my monthly period. Everything seems so shitty and then after a few minutes I am eletated. Anxiety creeps in then the whole world seems to fall down on me. I can be so angsty and destructive, then sensitive and vulnerable, just minutes apart.

It doesn't help that a normal day is already a struggle of sanity for me.

Sigh.

Ps. A photographer once told me that black and white photos give a sense of a messy and gothic feel. He said it accentuates the darkness and grotesqueness of a subject or environment. That is why it is usually used to portray destructions, calamities and injustices. But with the right eye and technique, it can also show survival and resiliency despite their unfortunate circumstances.