Updates

 August was not kind to me.

There were not much orders for the pizza business. So financially, no income 😔😔

This month, my daughter’s online classes started. Well, not exactly a good start as my daughter likes the idea of school but not the idea of doing school at home. I will make a post about it in a few days.
I felt my anxiety more this month, and I could not count how many times I have cried and I have spaced out.

In terms of progress in my journey to a better me, this month was a step back.
Activities I have been doing in the previous months to “self rediscovery” have been limited or have ceased for this month. I guess I was overwhelmed with the idea of homeschooling my child and I put all my focus there. It doesn’t help that some “concerns” that I thought would be halted or put aside for some time due to the pandemic, would actually be aggressively pushed forward, adding stress to my already anxious state, talking about adding insult to injury.

Well, something a little positive. I fixed an electric line connection on my own and fixed a water connection. I even joked to my sister that maybe I chose the wrong course in college, as I seem to be better in practical stuff. I am even considering taking technical courses just to see if I might be able to have more opportunities in the future.

Also, I bought a bike. Generally, I like it. It needs a lot of repairs but I think I can handle it, if only I have the right tools.

The thing that I have been delaying for months now, I was able to do it, but it gave me more anxiety than relief.

I foresee more struggles in the future, I just keep holding on.

Ps. I hope September would give me more enlightenment.

Pss. Drowning myself in music again, that is why I know I am not doing well.