I am not fine, and I am just learning to accept that

I am not fine, and I am just learning to accept that.

From where I am right now, I would have to say that I am just starting and I have a long way to go before I become comfortable in accepting the truth,

that I am not fine.

I am genuinely happy for my friends who post about their family and their lives, but deep inside I have this uncomfortable pain that I can't fathom,

or maybe I know the feeling, I just refuse to acknowledge it.

I just started this journey of rediscovering myself last April/May, and progress has been slow, but I am hopeful.

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PS this post was inspired by a dear friend of mine, Shiz/ Fuji-senpai <3 Thank you the chat even tough we are miles apart. :)