Bills gives me anxiety

They call it adulting. I call it getting things done and being anxious the whole way.

Bills, bills, and a whole lot of bills. Here in the city, nothing seems to move unless you pay. The anxiety is exhausting me because of these bills.

Thinking about it, financially, I am not stable, and I am dependent on my husband. I could be financially independent if only I would move my ass. The problem with me is it's hard to motivate myself. I also fear that if I focus too much on being financially independent, I will neglect my daughter. As some people would say, not everyone can get the best of both worlds. One has to sacrifice one over the other. Unfortunately, most of the people around me do no think this way. They think I am just lazy, but in truth, I am just tired emotionally and mentally. Of course, nobody in my family believes me other than my sister.

Hopefully, I can be financially stable in the future when I start getting experience as a Caregiver. I am still anxious about it, but at the moment, I have to push forward to keep myself moving towards the future. I am hoping this would also open a better opportunity for my daughter in the future.

malls

my sister and i were asked to pay the phone bill last saturday.

it was the first time i/we payed the bill without any guardian. ^_^

after paying the bill, we walked all the way from the phone center (15 Avenue) to Araneta Center.

it was a 10-15 minutes walk. ^_^

we went to SM and we bought papa's charger, 2 memory cards and ice cream sundae for us. ^_^

on our way home, we passed by Araneta Coliseum.

we realized it was the second day of the Disney on Ice performance.

we saw all these colorful and glittering merchandise catching the attention of both kids and adults. ○^_^○

we then passed by Gateway Mall and we saw these cute, antique-looking, leather box/clock. ^_^

so nice. ^_^

in the afternoon, we went to TriNoMa with kuya les.

it was actually my first time but i did not enjoy it very much cause there were a lot of people. -_-

i asked rei-chan to take a picture of me with the Adidas logo cause i remember momo-senpai having a picture with the same logo when she went to TriNoMa. ^_^

while waiting for kuya les (he had a haircut), we roamed around and we saw a Gift Gate Shop.

i can't remember when was the last time i saw/ went inside a Gift Gate shop. xp

anyways, i am not a fan of Hello Kitty but at some point, i find their merchandise cute. ○^_^○

on our way home, we passed by Krispy Creme and KFC to buy donuts (for kuya jose) and chicken (for everybody). ^_^

the rest of the night was history. xp

bill

i paid the electric bill today. ^_^

first time actually.

but it was an adventure. ^_^

first of all,

i forgot the bill itself but the money was with me. xp

i realized this,

i was already infront of the Meralco building (where i pay the electric bill). xp

so i had to go back home to get the bill. xp

on the way home,

i bought Fanta Grape and cake for merienda. ^_^