Bills gives me anxiety

They call it adulting. I call it getting things done and being anxious the whole way.

Bills, bills, and a whole lot of bills. Here in the city, nothing seems to move unless you pay. The anxiety is exhausting me because of these bills.

Thinking about it, financially, I am not stable, and I am dependent on my husband. I could be financially independent if only I would move my ass. The problem with me is it's hard to motivate myself. I also fear that if I focus too much on being financially independent, I will neglect my daughter. As some people would say, not everyone can get the best of both worlds. One has to sacrifice one over the other. Unfortunately, most of the people around me do no think this way. They think I am just lazy, but in truth, I am just tired emotionally and mentally. Of course, nobody in my family believes me other than my sister.

Hopefully, I can be financially stable in the future when I start getting experience as a Caregiver. I am still anxious about it, but at the moment, I have to push forward to keep myself moving towards the future. I am hoping this would also open a better opportunity for my daughter in the future.