Time of the year

It’s that time of the year again.

Rain showers,

Warm Sweater,

Hot chocolate,

Wooly Comforter,

A little liquor,

Snug Jacket,

Comfy bed and pillow,

...

Dramatic rain scene plot bunnies 😏😏😏

The last one is the icing on the cake. 😎😎😎

A month

It has been a month since I got back to blogging. How has it been?

I have been better as compared to before I returned to blogging. As a whole, I would say the results have been positive. Other than blogging, below is a list of other activities that have helped me “get my self, back together”:

• Dancing - I love dancing and getting back to it has been a great stress reliever. I am not a trained dancer, I just really want that natural high from my natural DOSE (dopamine, oxytocin, serotonin and endorphins.)
• Story writing - To be more specific, fan fiction writing. It has kept me more focused and I find myself learning more because I research details to make the story more accurate. I now have interest in Kyudo or Japanese martial arts of archery, though not in-depth, I still find myself reading or watching videos about it.
• Washing the dishes on time - There was a time we would just pile up the dishes and only wash it an hour or two before the meal. Recently, I started to change this habit and make sure that I wash it after every meal. “You are supposed to wash the dishes after every meal” Yes I know we are lazy, that’s why I am trying to change that. Please don’t judge. If you have been following my entries recently, I have mentioned that doing household tasks, any menial tasks, have been a struggle. Mainly because of emotional troubles, but like what I said, everything is a work in progress. Washing the dishes on time has helped me specially in the morning because I am more at ease in preparing breakfast and I seem to have more time to just be myself - not stress over dirty dishes first thing in the morning.
• Shift in social media platform - I have decided to shift my focus from Facebook to other social media platforms. It was already becoming toxic for me so I decided to move to other platforms with lesser audience and more space to express myself.

The list may still go on, I might add to the list in the future, we’ll see.

Though a part of me thinks that these are just temporary, I just try to enjoy the best of it.

I still have those moments of anger, frustrations and anxiety, though it feels more manageable and less condescending as before. Maybe I am learning, maybe I am not. Let’s see what happens.

Life goes on. Seize the day.

Fan fiction

Ever since I was in high school, I have read fan fiction about my favorite animes. It was a different universe, ideas and thoughts of other “writers/fans” adding more spice to an already interesting anime. It was my run-to when I was feeling sad even during my college years.

I remember, my high school friends and I even had our group fan fiction with characters from different animes we watched and our own characters. After some time, the fan fiction was discontinued since we went to different schools for college, though we talk about bits and pieces about it when we get together.

Eventually I started to make my own fan fictions with my character in it, though I never published any of my stories. It was just a way to pass time or to continue that exciting feeling once I’ve finished an anime.

Fan fiction has also been a way for me and my sister to bond. We would share fan fictions we see online and even add more details to it; or even make our own fan fiction, based on a different fan fiction. It was and is still a blast doing this with my sister Rei.

It has been almost six years since I made a fan fiction or even a single plot bunny based on an anime, manga or movie.

Recently, I find myself making a fan fiction about a BL movie/ manga that I watched/read. This time it was a way of escape from the unbearable pains or reality. Yes, I am day dreaming, but when I think about it, it has made me calmer and more focused.

It is only now that I realized how much fan fiction has been a crucial part of my life. It has guided me through high school, became a bonding moment for me and my sister, and now, my survival pill in this tormenting reality.

I am not a writer but i don’t think that will stop me from making fan fictions.

Till next time~

PS. According to my sister, I once told her:

Fan fics does not always follow the intro-conflict-climax-resolution pattern. Most of the time it's "how to get from scene one to scene 57." 😂😂😂

hope by anneko

i read this fan fiction about the golden pair and it really gave me the creeps. (T_T)

though, i was very amused and satisfied. (^_~)

HOPE by anneko