After a struggle, a person is NEVER the same

I hope everyone understands, every time a person succeeds from a struggle, they are NEVER the same. The eyes are different, smiles change, and there will forever be an invisible scar inside them. Do you know what's more painful? Sometimes they yearn for their "old self."

I know because that is who I am right now.

The struggle is never-ending, and the yearning is depressing.

Every single day is a chance to see the light. But there is no guarantee that at the end of the day, everything will be better. There are good and difficult ones, and sometimes settling with calm days is enough to say that we are alive.

Once a person has gone through a struggle, some become stronger, while some suddenly second guess themselves.

I fall on the latter. I never truly got over my traumas, but I always try to survive and overcome my doubts. It is tiring, but when we feel at ease at the end of the day, the feeling itself is rewarding. Accepting peace with the inner self is a long process. Though I decided to start my journey to inner peace last year through this blog, I would have to say that progress is not good. I keep stumbling and going back to the starting point. It is full of frustrations and tears, yet here I am, alive and breathing, taking things one step at a time.

To people who might be going through the same experience as me, I won't tell you to fight for life. Instead, I would like you to know that you are not alone. Only time will tell when we will be ready to face the world. But right now, we must face our shadows.

Someday, I hope we can accept that we can never be the same as our old selves, but we can be better and happier in the future.