Some things are not meant to be

For a month now, I am working on fixing an investment that went awry. I was so mad at the agents that I was creating scenarios in my head and plotting their downfall.

There was a sudden turn of events last week. As I went to their office to discuss the issue, things became emotional at some point.

In the end, I became friends with the people I was initially planning to "defeat." Well, not close friends but acquaintance friends.

I guess some people are not to be business associates but personal acquaintances?

I remember when I was in college, we had groupings for a research paper. There were eight of us in our group of friends, so we decided to group ourselves into two groups with four members each. Initially, there was good group dynamics. But as the months passed, there was tension between another member of the group and me. It continued until we finished the research paper. Luckily we were able to do good on the research paper. We decided never to be groupmates again for a research paper because of our differences in work ethic. We respected our differences, and there was no tension in our friendship.

Recently, I noticed that I have been forcing things to work my way. It is hard to admit that it is out of desperation. Everything has been a struggle, and one cannot deny that some have resulted in dangerous ways to survive. Sometimes I think that  I have done enough to survive, and sometimes I am too hard on myself that I say, "I am not doing enough."

The internal struggle is troubling.

Learning, for now, choose my battles. Should I fight for this to survive? Or should I accept it for now and work on it until I find the solution in the future?

Maybe, this not meant for me at this moment? For the future?

Friends? Acquaintances? or business associates?